I originally thought One Day was going to be the last mix in the You Just Find Beauty saga, but the ending didn't accurately portray the actual journey. Until Then is set to be the finale mix of this saga, and when you see the meta commentary of the mix, you will understand that this mix, unlike the past mixes, are more emotional, symbolic, and cinematic.

About the Cover Art

The art is a culmination of the past dreams: You, Journey to You, and Wish Maker, being amongst a field of red poppies. It also references the past of shattering from my life in One Day. I have been on this journey for a long time, to finally finding her on the physical plain. I have not taken a rest on this journey, mentally or physically, all because of her. Passion can drive a man to go for miles, especially for his dream woman.

Unlike previous mixes, there isn't an alternate art. This was planned, as a LOT of art ended up being referenced on my TikTok, documenting the journey through art. Additionally, once you get to the ending, the saga succeeding this will take over based on what fate may decide.

A Crescendo of Emotions

The intro starts with where One Day ended: calling for her. I will see her real soon.

But leaving it there felt, well, open ended. I needed to document this long and arduous journey into worlds I have never crossed, never experienced in any plain of existence prior.

However, this journey, my dreams revisit me while I am braving the elements to find the one true love.

You will see throughout the mix (and in journey snapshots) that I reference (or remix) songs from previous dreams, and my reality. They are referenced as:

Song Selection

Summer's Ending Soon - The Midnight

If you have been following this journey from the beginning, I have hidden 2 meta meanings into the cover art themselves.

Phases of the Day

They look like this (along with similar overall tonality of each mix):

This, along with the next meta meaning, were planned from the start. Signifying, that, although the day may be a phase, the length of my day isn't defined by time. I keep though the day, and all through the night.

Seasons

Additionally, in relation to this song, it references that it is in the season change.

For Summer's Ending Soon, the last bit of summer is going away as it is getting much colder out. From a much more happier, brighter beginning in the spring in You, to the summer of hope in Journey to You and Wish Maker, to the more retrospective and recentering of fall with One Day, then finally the last shred of summer leaves, it then becomes colder, lonelier, and isolated in Until Then, while still holding on to shreds of hope. This song is the last shred of summer going into the winter.

Much more into the song

I subtly wanted to make some peace with how the saga (or story ends). I have not received a "yes" or a "no" from the previous mixes, the ball has been in her court since the beginning. It's been keeping me up at night. It's just a fork in the road (foreshadowing the end).

I have been on this journey for 2 years up to this point as of writing. Am I running out of time, to see what this could be?

The entire time, I have been waiting for an answer, there is no truth but what she (i.e. fate) decides. Could this be true love and goodbye?

This song seemed perfect as the intro, especially in the context of what is currently going on in real life.

I Hope You Know - sapientdream & Slushii feat. CloudNone

This song, when I first heard it, was exactly the tone and inflection I felt. Especially:

I hope she knew I was thinking about her. Even if our communication IRL dwindled, I still was thinking about her. Then follows the question:

I was worried for the longest time that she was like me in a sense. Isolated. Misunderstood. Not in tune. Likewise, I was worried she didn't think I was into her, and I was doing this whole thing for attention for me as a DJ. That isn't the case, as I would have made mixes prior to starting this saga if that were the case, additionally, as I have said in the You Explanation, I never imagined I would have made a mix for any woman I was interested, for fear of putting effort in and getting called a creep, weirdo, or worse, something that, growing up, I have had to deal with for a long time, especially with autism. So, I have been very careful from the start not to add too much pressure to her.

However, while I might not be the best when it comes to normal communication, my language that I feel I communicate best in is through music, the one thing that got us to meet over a decade ago.

Right, back to the song, I wanted to let her know that we can make it step by step if she takes the chance on me.

Likewise, this also resonates with me.

I hope she knows that in my heart, she has a home. We were never meant to do this alone. Even though, as you will hear in the rest of this mix, I journey through hell and high water to find her so she wouldn't feel alone.

Born To Be Yours - Kygo & Imagine Dragons

When I started this whole saga, people within my circle were in one of 2 camps:

• You got this, she will absolutely love it, this is more effort than I have seen come out of one person for a girl he's interested in.

or

• You're setting yourself up for failure, like you have before. This is more than what you have done prior to find a loving woman, and we are worried that you are going to crash and burn harder than before.

But, I have prayed about this for years. Unlike before, I was not full of haste. I wanted to do this right.

I was (and still am) confident that she is the one. I've talked with professionals, friends, family, and my pastor, mostly to check to see if I have gone insane, and see if this new wave of feelings was divine intervention. I had to try, because she was unique in ways I didn't think were possible.

Vertigo - NURKO, Crystal Skies, Stefan PVDS

This song came out relatively recently, and it really played into some of the messages that the overarching saga story told.

Again, playing into the journey of the seasons. From the Summer islands to the Hills of Snow. It don't matter how far I go, I will always find home, you.

As the night goes on (eluding to the phases of the day) there's only one reason I survive it: You are the one, the one who shows me where the light is (eluding to Brightest Light from You and Nightlight from Wish Maker), and she is the light, always have been.

I was spinning in confusion, while physically remaining still, like Vertigo. The Symptoms of missing you were prevalent (foreshadowing).

In My Arms - ILLENIUM & HAYLA

This song is an emotional dance track exploring the intense, electric connection of feeling "at home" with someone.

This song really had me, because every time I thought about her, the chemicals started rushing in.

Now, there was a different ending.

I made this into the tail end of the original, because I wanted to evoke the cinematic love I felt, and it was best that I ended it with the cinematic version of the same song. It was a beautiful, heartfelt way of evoking my passion for her.

Mothman - Skybreak & Essenger

In the context of this mix, this may feel like an odd inclusion lyrically. It was because I was fighting my own emotions at the same time.

Using Mothman as a metaphor (and a bonus reference to both of us West Virginian natives) for fear, impending disaster, or a haunting, mysterious presence. I was, and still am, scared of the unknown. I was very scared that she was going to say no, and all the work built up for one person resulted in nothing.

Likewise, Mothman in recent years has been framed as a shy, misunderstood, or introverted figure, where that applies to myself as well. I feel my way of communication (via music) was misunderstood, in addition to myself, in a form.

Although in real life I am known for a lot of things, it's unfortunate that I have had a personal problem with masking as an autistic adult. People know me for the different masks, but I have always had this fear that no person wants to truly see what's behind the mask. I'm still the same person, I'm just worried that other's don't want to get to know me fully. Hence:

This also plays congruently with the next verse.

I've always thought something was wrong with me, what with a slight bit of limerence to a degree I have never shown for a person in any past encounter.

Where I haven't heard a "yes" or "no", I was in a panic, and I was planning it as I go. But additionally, at one point I did visit her in real life to hand her gifts and tell her how I felt, it was outside while it was cold and windy, where I tried to explain, but I was worried she didn't see me the same after that day.

The Pressure Within

You may notice, if you are listening to the mix with headphones, you can hear whispers. These whispers are my renditions of what the demons in my head.

Then I have my own internal monologue.

This internal struggle will return later in this mix.

Time - Hans Zimmer

This song, while part of the cinematic journey I am taking, is also from the movie "Inception". This song, especially in the context of this mix, symbolizes the inevitable, dreamlike, and often overwhelming passage of time.

Like Zimmer intended, as Michal Zak put it:

He needed to be bold.
He needed to push the envelope.
He needed to find a unique way to convey such powerful emotions.

And to complement these intense emotions, we have to add in:

Take Me Back To Eden - Sleep Token

This deeply layered song that explores themes of lost love, personal redemption, and the struggle between desire and self-destruction. Ultimately a cycle of longing, regret, and the painful journey toward self-acceptance. It hit home for me, especially calling back to the past dreams, where did that all go?

I felt, that in light of the first 3 mixes, I dreamed in phosphorescence, glowing, vivid colors that I saw of her. It was beautiful to experience. However, now that I have woken up from that to find her on the physical plane, I see her drifting past the fog (ergo why she is more of a spirit in the cover of Until Then).

Indeed I have, people close to me have warned me to quit now so the pain won't be as brutal. I have travelled far beyond the path of reason, so I can be taken back to Eden.

LULLABY - PhaseOne & HVDES

This, while being arguably PhaseOne's most melancholic track on TERRANOVA, is a perfect rendition of me allowing dark thoughts or "demons" to take over and lull me to sleep, unable to wake up. Luring me into a dangerous scenario, where to see her again for sure isn't in the physical world, it is in the dream world as I sleep forever, as an allegory to death.

A Uneasy Return to the Dream World

As the ticking of the clock from LULLABY goes on for what seems to be an eternity, it is meant as a representation of vulnerability and second guessing my decisions by the threat of losing time. Listening to what the demons and intrusive thoughts rolling in my head, I make a cursed decision:

By this point, I wanted to make sure the person I have been chasing all this time either only exists in my dreams, or is she existent in my physical reality?

So, I go back to the dream world, to sleep. Short-sighted, yes. Dangerous, yes. But I need to make sure what I am after even if she exists.

As the clock ticks away, rhythmically lulling me to sleep, you hear the same rhythmic synth in the background of...

Crusade - Gabry Pointe

Crusade acts as an invitation to escape reality and discover a "drop of paradise". The lyrics focus on themes of adventure, freedom, and, the pursuit of a better, dreamlike life beneath a "purple sky" (as also was partially a reference to the cover art of One Day, the same dream world I have been trying to break her out of). Inevitably trusting the demons to go to the other side (another level of symbolism for death and afterlife).

This promise of the perfect dream world I originally woke up out of in One Day, another life is waiting on the other side, contrasting I could leave my physical life to be permanently in my dream life. But that promise did not last long...

Ghoul - Emalkay feat. The Others & Subscape

This song brought more of a uneasy feeling to the promised dream world, seeming to be in the place I was in the past. You also hear me come to the terrifying realization:

As I come closer to this realization, a ghost that I thought was her came to me and spoke:

🙏 Love - NGHTMRE

Echoing back from One Day, I was scared that the dream of her I once thought was perfect, were from rose-tinted glasses, unlike the one to be on the physical plane of existence.

🌠Just Pretend (Blanke Flip) - Bad Omens

As the original song was referenced in Wish Maker, but the meaning in Until Then adds an additional melancholic twist.

I realized in this moment that I am just pretending that I am with her in my dream world.

And in that second of time, my dream self snaps to realization that this was not the promised dream world, this was a curated nightmare. I needed to get out before I am trapped forever in my own head.

ALIVE - ALLEYCVT

I opened my eyes that this facade in my dream is just to block me from find her in my physical plane. I can see the end, taking back control of my dreams to get out of this tainted nightmare. Fighting for my physical life back, I try to get out of the prison of my mind:

HACKING THE GATE - Juelz

I am trying to hack my mental prison gates to get out of my own head to find the real her.

In the beginning of this song:

Which, roughly translated from Japanese:

Fun fact: at the time of writing and recording, we actually first met a little over 13 years ago. I felt that was very fascinating to include.

Right, I got sidetracked. Back to the story:

I'm begging to find her in the physical plane of existence, wondering if she is hiding from me. Pleading to show me where she is tonight.

Lost in the Unknown

As I have escaped my mental prison, I float within the universe in my brain aimlessly. This is where these songs were put together:

Lost In You - AVELLO

Tears - Skrillex, Joker, & Sleepnet

As the backing tracks, it really emphasizes how lost in her I was, driving me to essentially tears. Not sure what to do, where to go from here. Do I continue to float in the subliminal space of my subconscious, or do I find a way to escape back to reality?

During this time, songs continue to echo in my space.

Losing My Mind - Majestic & Nightcrawlers

4EVR - ISOKNOCK (ISOxo & Knock2) feat. cade clair

You hear from Losing My Mind:

competing with 4EVR:

I feel I was losing the plot. Losing my mind, and the feeling of being stuck in music for someone I have been yearning for feels like forever in a trance, hypnotized in a way. Then, the feeling of her true prescence comes out.

Everytime We Touch - Cascada

Although physically, none has happened yet, in my void, I felt energy to finally find her. I want her in my (physical) life.

As I gain the courage to escape, I hear the siren's song of the ghostly version of her coming for me.

As I notice, the piano plays.

Ghost - Gabry Pointe

Under the guise of fitting together perfectly together in the dream world (i.e. the song in the tune to the theme of Tetris), I have to retort using the same song:

Exploring a tumultuous, haunting relationship where I remain a persistent, obsessive, and unsettling presence of the fake version of her in my mind, a ghostly version of her.
The subtle low beat in the start of the transition represents my heartbeat in this time of fear.

I had to escape, and fast.

Then, the faux recreation of her sings:

Lonely - Oliverse feat. Hannah Avison

Knowing I am in emotional isolation, longing, or vulnerability within this plane, the facsimile of her will always welcome me back in my dreams, if what I am looking for in the physical world doesn't exist.

Return to the Physical Plane (with a burning passion)

I wake up once again in a panic and cold sweat (like in One Day), and say:

As the crescendo of this comes back with a newfound energy:

Afterlife - KAYA!

I have felt a brush with what the "afterlife" would have been. With this realization of what may come in store if I fail in my mission to find her in the physical plane, I had find an answer. A passion fueled by fear of immense anxiety and possible loss. Hence:

It was not too late for me.

"Fading to blue" refers to the fade into the blue and cold of the Winter season, in addition with powering the inspiration of the Until Then cover art.

I thought I was going insane in my dreams, I was caught up in the haze chasing You.

In this sullen moment, I did make it through the afterlife.

Positivity sets in, and I move forward to finding her.

The Other Side (H4RRIS x Aaron Shirk Remix) - Jason Derulo

I've known of her, whether in the real-life plane, the physical plane in the story, and a few incarnations in my dream world. However, in the real-life plane, I never thought this whole thing would have been her, especially at the time we met in 2012.

With resonated verses such as:

As the origin of this song was a thrilling transition from a platonic friendship to a romantic relationship, the Other Side is this flipped coin of fate, as an antithesis of the other side of death and dreams (like in Crusade) is the corporeal plane of existence of the one true version of her.

Hope is abound. Tonight, I will find the true her for her to take me to the side of life.

In the real-life plane, it could be perfect if fate would say yes, but we won't know unless we try. I know she may be nervous, but trust in me and let me drive.

The Veldt - deadmau5 feat. Chris James

This song has a deeper meaning beyond it's lyrics. As this song was inspired by Ray Bradbury's short story of the same name.

It was put in as, where I am happier and determined to find her in this physical plane of existence (hence the tone of the instrumental), the symbolism of the "virtual" veldt represents a dangerous, untamed, and ultimately fatal environment created by my own childlike wonderland of thoughts. In the back of my mind, I was worried that this world I have created in this saga was only a virtual world created by my dreams, consuming my own real life world.
Along with the fear of my message in music could be misinterpreted, especially for the real-life her. Which, is a main factor for me foraying into a new medium of writing the story and emotions of the entire saga into what you are reading now.

To The Moon - Alok & ILLENIUM

To The Moon symbolizing my journey of escaping the familiar, pursuing a deep, transformative connection, and exploring the unknown, conveying themes of freedom, longing, and following her into a new, cosmic, or emotional space. 

I have been on this journey for 2 years as of writing. In the physical plane of this story, and parallel to real-life, I know there's someone out there, I know she's out there. I will follow to the moon, following you.

This was that moment I was signaling out into the ethos if she can hear me. Can you read me? Can you feel me? Can you feel the emotions emanating from these mixes?

I would go even longer to find the woman of my dreams, her.

VEM MEU AMOR - SXYGX

Throughout this entire saga, I have communicated in many different ways, especially languages. Japanese with the ending of One Day of Calling Out to You and with this mix in HACKING THE GATE, to Spanish in One Day with CONTIGO.

Vem Meu Amor in Portuguese translates to "Come My Love", showing that I'm willing to cross lannguage barriers to get my call to you across to her and to finally find her in all planes of existence.

Maps - Maroon 5

The song in its original form explores the themes of desperate love, heartbreak, and the frantic search to fix a broken, one-sided relationship. It portrays a narrative of tracing steps to find a lost partner, highlighting themes of devotion, regret, and the painful realization that the love is not reciprocated.

Although she may be considered lost in the sense that I am trying to find her, as said:

I'm following the map in my heart, guided by faith, to be with her in all planes of existence.

This is also a slight nod to both Wish Maker and One Day with Sigala and MNEK's Radio.

In any context, whether real-life, physical plane of the story, or even tangentially in the dream world, I can't get over you.

Empty - Martin Garrix & DubVision feat. Jaimes

The one-sidedness of the relationship, along with any lack of response in the corporeal and real-life plane, made me feeling, well, empty. Having said that, I still pressed on with the mixed emotions of moving forward to finally receive the resolution I have been searching for since this journey began...

LAST OF US (Jerro Remix) - Gryffin feat. Rita Ora

As with most of the song:

Highlighting the overall theme of everlasting love and emotional connection, even through the whole journey to her.

I have been fighting, not only the elements, the seasons, the phase of the day, even the conflict within my own head and heart. Time has been a big emphasis in this journey, even more prevalent in Until Then. I need to let the shadows fall behind me (foreshadowing). Even throughout this whole journey, I was still a little sick within. I was feeling the --

Symptoms - MitiS feat. Luma

This track is a deeply personal track written to find peace amidst chaos. Chaos of every entity around me adding pressure, whether intended on not, combined with my own self-pressure, because my passion for her was more powerful than anything else that one might throw at me. Tumultuous would be an understatement, but like a Phoenix, I rise from the ashes. I was worried that we go together, or we don't, a war within me occurs.

I did at many points blame it on the weather. Winter is a very lonely season, which is why Until Then is placed in a winter season.

Likewise, the release of most of the mixes in this journey were within the winter season in real-life, as I hoped for a brighter spring and summer with her.

You - January 25th, 2024
Journey to You - February 14th, 2024
One Day - January 26th, 2025
Until Then - February 2nd, 2026
(note: Wish Maker was released on March 29th, 2024, which may explain why the tone in that mix is generally brighter)

I have the symptoms of you. When I think I have lost it (or lost you), my body is at war with itself. My head and my heart have duked it out for years, and it seems that missing you comes in waves (a nod to Waves in One Day).

The friends (and family) I have had warned me that what I'm doing, while adorable, it high risk for not only for her, but for my own mental and emotional health. The second I find someone that checks every single box in the real world, I go after it with voracity, I ignored all of the signs. It also didn't help I was nostalgic from the days we talked from a group chat we met through mutual friends, not to mention the exact day we met in August of 2012 (originally, I said 2013, but I was off by a year after looking for concrete evidence of that date. I have since changed that after finding the date), in addition to nostalgia that you will see near the end of Until Then.

Follow Me - Martin Jensen & LAWRENT feat. SACHA

I followed every sign in the sky. Whether it was my heart, my past events, my prayers to God, everything. I was worried I was doing this journey for the wrong reasons. Then, I was reminded of this:

This one verse really gave me strength that what I was feeling was genuine and not a tainted version I was feeling. As I mentioned in Symptoms, the time between mixes also widened, a saner man would have given up. I did not. I followed until I find a resolution, hence guided by faith. I followed the light (her), with all of my fears and insecurities.

Forever's in the stars is why in the cover art, she is a bright spirit among the stars, and I will follow to the moon.

Symphony - Clean Bandit feat. Zara Larsson

This journey hasn't just been finding her, it is parallel to me finding profound love, meaning, and healing in another person, treating the relationship as a harmonious, essential composition, as in real life, we did meet in music (as part of marching band).

I was feeling deep longing, vulnerability, and the fear of loss, with the "symphony" serving as a metaphor for a shared, beautiful life. It was an important part of this entire journey from the start.

Eluding to the entire saga, she is the music in my head, like a love song on the radio (like I mentioned in Wish Maker and One Day). I just wanted to be a part of her symphony.

I was, and still worried, that this entire saga added way too much pressure to her, as it may have been too much. These feelings were new to me, and it was the most inspired spark I have ever had.

Potions (Au5 Remix) - SLANDER & Said The Sky feat. JT Roach

My internal dichotomy with Symphony, is exploring the intense desire to preserve a (what the demons in my head were saying at the beginning) a failing attempt to a meaningful relationship. Hence, why they were mixed together in the first place.

Again, she checked all of the boxes for me. I've never met someone like her. I have never felt this way. She was a new color to me (referencing You and One Day).

Everywhere I see her, mixed emotions of happiness for how her life is progressing, and the sadness of what could have been. I still prayed for her, regardless if a relationship would propagate. Her success in her life mattered more to me than a loving relationship with her. Although I persisted in the latter, the meaning will still hold true even if she says no.

The Night Does Not Belong To God - Sleep Token

Although it is only the instrumental in this mix, the song itself explores themes of longing, intimacy, and the mental fragmentation associated with emotional distress (as I have been torn on wanting her and these new emotions) or memory dysfunction (as it has been affecting other aspects of what happened, or when certain events occurred, hence the day we met confusion). But, the real power of this part comes from:

Euclid - Sleep Token

I have to come to terms with the possibility she could say no. This marks a shift towards self-acceptance, letting go of the past, and embracing a new, albeit uncertain, future. Hence, even though the journey I took to get to the end, you will hear soon what happens.

Additionally, I referenced in the journey snapshot of when we met, now knowing that the year was slightly incorrect. I leaned into that mistake and rectified it. But the meaning of that snapshot was asking her:

What It Sounds Like (Rock Version - RaidAr Cover) - HUNTR/X (EJAE, AUDREY NUNA, & REI AMI)

This moment in the mix, is where that, no matter what the answer will be from her being my fate, I want to embrace imperfection, vulnerability, and authenticity over perfection, complete with all of my flaws. Which is why, in the first half of the song, I do the vocals of it.

You can see from that verse that it shows everything I'm about. But the chorus ties this whole thing up.

If you were looking at the cover art(s) of One Day, and a lot of my journey snapshots and wondered "Why is there so much emphasis on broken glass?", I see all of the beauty through the broken glass, like in One Day, where I tried to break her out of the dream world through my passion, and then in Until Then when the same burning passion gave me the power to break myself out of my own mental prison.

This is why, before transitioning to the original (as you will see why), it starts with my voice without the lie, this is what it sounds like.

I covered up my true emotions and colors inside of my head (in the dreamscape of You, Journey to You, and Wish Maker), why didn't I let them out years ago long before this entire saga came to fruition? The song I couldn't write (well, I attempted to in One Day with Just Find Beauty, but I wish I knew how to produce music better), this is what it sounds like.

After watching K-Pop Demon Hunters fairly recently, this being the climactic song made so much sense for the climactic finale of this Just Find Beauty saga. I listened to the demons earlier in Until Then with Time and LULLABY, I let my internal doubts get between the physical version of us. I have flaws, many that I am comfortable being vulnerable when describing in this entire saga, no human is infallible, but I embrace it more than ever, because my goal stayed the same for over 2 years now.

In the transition to the original song, you may hear the crowd, this was intended, as reflected in the cover art of this cover. These are the people that have supported my endeavor to show my true colors and art to the person I have held feelings for a while now.

🌠Language - Porter Robinson

This track came back as the beautiful dream world that I came from in Wish Maker is part of the colors stuck inside of my head, but I wanted to bring back the feeling of being alive, that same feeling that snapped me out of my mental prison earlier in Until Then with ALLEYCVT's ALIVE, which then comes to:

Alive - Krewella

Amidst the chaos, both externally and internally, this was my song of survival, defiance, and finding euphoria even within emotional darkness.

I do not regret making this saga. Ever. Nor will it be undedicated to her if she says no, as this was an inflection point that brought out the best of me and my 15+ years of skills as a live performance DJ. Even through the patience and risk of limerence exists, my dreams were made of gold, and had to me made into music, especially for someone that (either intentionally or unintentionally) sparked this flame.

She is hanging by fate, whatever her AS fate would choose: yes or no.

Exactly how I ended Wish Maker with the sample of Are You Scared by Oiki, "He's waiting for you", I've been waiting here all of my life within this saga, and in the real life plane. Every second here makes my heart beats faster with what fate will bring, a yes, or a no. I finally think I found what I am chasing after. Now, I charge forward.

✨Digital Love - Daft Punk

As an additional callback to You, Digital Love comes back, as an extension of my "virtual" dream world mentioned earlier in Until Then with The Veldt, but with a more positive air around it.

Mixing Krewella's Alive and the next 2 songs together offers a new perspective to this saga towards the end, an exciting possibility of what could come out of this entire journey.

MAD - Martin Garrix & Lauv

Visiting the tumultuous, addictive cycle of modern romantic anxiety, where intense desire for someone clashes with frustration over their behavior. MAD highlights the push-and-pull of falling hard for someone who keeps you in a loop of confusion, causing both intense love and maddening frustration. 

Referenced as more of an echo than the entire song, the hook itself brings the main point home:

I meant it. From long times of no contact from her side, to specific posts she shares about the relationship scene in the modern era, and where I was more traditional in my ways in my upbringing, contradicting most of the vices of modern dating, I wanted to be more of a renegade.

In that same vein, is also where originally I was gonna put this sample from Childish Gambino's Heartbeat, as this was a very similar message.

I wanted her to know I was (and have been) ready to go, with a note from Mothman from earlier in Until Then, I was shy and a bit scared in my normal communication methods, hence, "Whenever you are around, I can't speak"

You Make Me Feel (COASTR. X Leondis Remix) - Cobra Starship feat. Sabi

You Make Me Feel really hits home with a song about the overwhelming joy, excitement, and adrenaline rush of finding a special romantic connection, while themes of searching for a soulmate, instant attraction, and the feeling of being truly alive. 

It was one of the main feelings that I, on this journey, have felt the most vividly about her. I am overjoyed at where I am, and where I came from at the start of this journey, while it had it's ups and downs, my burning passion for her in this story kept me vividly imagining searching for her, and instantly becoming with her.

I've been all over the world looking for you. If you listen you can hear me through the radio, not only calling back to Sigala and MNEK's Radio from Wish Maker and One Day, but also a nod to various dedicated appearances to her on the local radio show House Arrest on 104.5FM in Huntington, West Virginia.

And, like all of the past dream (You, Journey to You, and Wish Maker) mixes of the saga bring back, What I've been missing in my life, what I have been dreaming of, you'll be that girl.

Edge Of Your Heart - Au5 & TruFeelz

Carrying deep devotion, emotional support, and patience in a relationship. Relating to the story as I followed her on their personal journey, offering to share their burdens and provide stability when the world feels overwhelming.

As one of the main snapshots of the journey, why it was also captioned "the Journey is Finally Believed" makes sense, where it seemed impossible at times, but I offered devotion and support to her even in her darkest times, and I intend to go on this personal journey with her, that is, if she will allow me.

When I saw her in real life, it was unlike a feeling I have ever had before. I knew she was on her own journey for love, and she was taking her time. I have counted for day, weeks, months, and years like the stars in the sky, the exact ones I see in her when I look into her eyes.

This exact journey in this story is the journey to the edge of her heart.

Those same stars connect us, as in:

Which, that constellation is my map in my heart, to what I eluded to earlier in Until Then with the song Maps.

Destiny - Neovaii

An inescapable, fated connection between two people, as I felt it was written in the stars for us.

Brave the Cold - Celestial Void x sadie elisabeth

This song was a challenging one to include, but it had a fascinating reason. One of which being part of the winter. I was braving the cold, through the snowy mountains and treacherous terrain of the story to get to where she was, and in my heart, that compass had told me to go to a convergence point, a point where my dream world and my physical world break into one place, where one decision of fate can change the course of the future for me.

Persistence and bravery into unknown territory, albeit full of risk, was what I have done since the beginning of this saga.

Score Suite - Marcelo Zarvos

And then, wrapping it all together to the final push to finally get to the convergence point and have her fate decide what my fate will be.

Towards The Sun - Rihanna

Adding this on top of Score Suite, really does put a fascinating additional focus on the cover art to the What It Sounds Like cover.

The shadows behind me gave me hope and promise, by supporting me in my endeavor, but, as the final leg of my journey comes to a resolution and a close, I have to do this last part alone.

I am on my own to have fate determine what is next for me.

Judgement Day

The convergence point I have been journeying for from the map placed in my heart and the trials and tribulations I have endured has arrived for me. A broken gate of my dream world and my physical reality fuse to one single entity for a brief moment, as I wait for the final judgement. Will she say yes? Or will she say no?

Winter Tundra (from Spyro 2: Ripto's Rage!) - Stewart Copeland

As I enter into the sacred world fused with where the journey started in my perfect dream scape, right into the corporeal plane of existence, I enter into a world where time felt still, the air crisp and of the winter, and subtle sounds of resonating shards of glass sparsely fill the air around me as the dream world collides with my physical world.

As I wait for a final judgement, as the cold midnight air becomes colder, freezes time still, as the amalgam worlds collide and time stops to find what may be my future.

while the time sleeps - Øneheart, Au5, Dean Korso, leadwave

Time is still, not a tick or tock in site, the world is covered with red posies and thick snow showing the passion I had coming to this mythical plane, despite all that I have went through.

But the ultimate question still remains unanswered: Will fate say yes, or no?

Crawl Back To My Coffin - Dayseeker

If the fork in the road mentioned all the way at the beginning of Summer's Ending Soon goes to the "no" answer, "The Other Side" will be going to sleep forever to see the facsimile version of her in my dream world, essentially crawling back into my coffin.

I've felt like I was actually dead in essentially a fugue state for years alone. I only get out of my coffin to finally hope to feel something beautiful, something unique. But, I am prepared to go back if fate gives me a no. Cutting my losses, even after all I endured, I am ready for if that happens.

However, if fate let's her appear in the convergence point, a different story is told.

Infinite Baths - Sleep Token

Her presence into this world would still mark the end of this saga, and the end of this journey. However, a new saga would begin. A journey that I can take with her. "The Other Side" in this being the side of finally achieving the goal I originally set out to all that time ago, and what Wish Maker fortold: "I wish to finally be with her".

Washed with the glory of finally achieving the end goal of the journey will be a refreshing and gratifying experience to say the least, marking that although tthe journey to her has ended, the journey with her has only just begun. I fought so long to be here, I am never going back.

Will she say yes or no? Will fate choose life or death? Will the decision be fantasy or reality?

We will soon find out.

Die With A Smile (Epic Orchestra Rendition) - Lady Gaga & Bruno Mars

Whichever definitive answer is given, I will die with a smile.

If fate descents on a yes, I will die with a smile as my new reincarnated life with her will begin on all planes of existence: the Dream Plane, the Corporeal Plane, and the Real Life Plane of existence.

If fate descents on a no, I will die with a smile. Sure, I will be distraught for a brief period, but even at the grave, looking back, I embarked on a journey not many before me have ever attempted, let alone made it to the end. It had its twists and turns, but in the end, it was worth the entire journey.

I end it off with:

Whichever way that she has for my fate, I will wait. Will she say yes or no?